Monday, February 7, 2011

Time to push forward

I just finished my workout today.  I felt like it was time to up the intensity of my workout.  About halfway through I didn't think I was going to make it, but I pushed through.  I found my meditative state and forgot about the pain.  I'm starting to hit that point in this change where I am finding changing my eating habits has become harder than expected.  Part of it has been that we ran out of money and have to wait until this Friday before we get anymore.  It's very frustrating, but I'm trying to do the best I can.  The other, as we all know, was super bowl weekend.  I must admit that I ate like crap this weekend.  I didn't even think about it. I didn't want to. I just wanted to be able to eat what I wanted, and I feel horrible about it. I probably ate my weight in chips and dip.

Today is a brand new day though, and I'm trying to get back on track.  I am feeling down though.  I have been at this for going on 4 weeks now and I haven't lost more than two pounds.  I know most of that is my own fault. But it's so discouraging.  I didn't think I was eating THAT bad. Yeah, I had a few things here and there, but for the most part I've been doing a lot better than I used to.  I'm finding it hard not to quit and give up.  But I have come too far to give up.  I just need to dig deep and find it in myself to change it. It's hard, but things that are worth having are hard to get. I need to remember to tell myself that...

1 comment:

  1. I also ate my weight in chips and dip this weekend! Its okay and expected to have weekends like that. Its a long run, big picture kind of thing.

    Also you are building muscle while you are doing this as well. So that is going to weight more than fat and you even have said your clothes are fitting better.

    You are doing it! Keep rocking.