Thursday, February 17, 2011
Fork in the Road
What the hell am I doing? Five weeks I've been at this. Five. Wanna know how much I've lost? A pound and a half. Wanna know how many inches I've lost? Nothing. Why am I even trying anymore. What is going on? I've been exercising three days a week, I've been changing my eating. I can count on one hand how many times I've eaten out. I've had maybe 24 ounces of soda in five weeks. What the hell? Am I just doomed to live this life at 306.5 pounds? I thought by now I would have seen something. Even five or ten pounds. But no, I see nothing. It makes it hard to keep going. I'm feeling really depressed and down about it. All I want to do is give up. Should I go talk to a doctor? What should I do? I have tried just about every diet under the sun. I finally said, 'hey, I'm gonna try to do it natural instead of taking pills or being on a regimented program.' But no, not even that is working. I'm at a fork in the road and I don't know which way to go.